I’m in one of those moods lately where I theoretically want a long hard spanking and to be able to take it well and have that highly fantasized emotional release at the end of it all. I say theoretically because this doesn’t always transfer over to real life. I’ve felt very stressed and emotionally taxed in recent weeks. Personal relationships, living situation, issues with family, friends, finances, and my workplace. It has been an utter shitstorm all at once. I think I have cried just about every day. But not as a result of spankings.
It is rare that all the stars align for me to actually be brought to tears during a spanking. It’s not usually a goal either because it seems if I aimed for that I’d be setting myself up for failure. So many things have to fall into place. I have taken some fairly hard ones but it’s not the physical pain that gets me to that point. It has to happen in my head. The person spanking me needs to get in my head. Talking helps. When I have to respond to questions it keeps me in the moment and focusing on what is happening rather than letting my stressed out mind wander off worrying about something else. Letting myself submit to it, like Alex wrote about here.
I feel very connected to S when he spanks me. He is a considerate and caring person and top. He has helped me push my limits before when that’s where I needed to go. I trust him to do that. He’s spanked me in this last week and I felt I wussed out. He started with the leather paddle, a favorite, and even that was testing me early on. Everything stung and I had a hard time staying in place. The wooden paddle was even harder to tolerate. By the time he got to the cane, I was nearly leaping off the bed with each stroke. I squirmed all over the place which I’m sure made it very difficult to aim. It didn’t last much longer after that but I did get some cuddling time which was nice.
|My idea of fireplay|
I have a topic on my mind that I’m wanting to write about but I haven’t sorted it all into rational thoughts yet. I may have it all processed by the weekend. But for now, onto the reason I’m sure you’re still here. Breaking Peeps news! I have a gas fireplace in my home that recently was made to work after years of living here and never turning it on. I started thinking hey, I wonder if I could roast Peeps in there. Because what normal person wouldn’t have that thought?
I took the question to Fetlife about if it was safe to eat Peeps roasted in a fireplace or if I’d die of toxic chemical intake or something. The answers I got were all yes it should be fine and some had done the same thing on a gas stove. That was all the reassurance I needed. I untwisted a hanger and started roasting. Note- Though they tasted just fine, they burn MUCH quicker this way than over a real wood fire.
Fireplace Peeps were a success and I wish I had the ingredients to make Peeps’mores. Maybe next time. Besides fireplaces amazing abilities to roast Peeps, I have more Peeps news. This weekend a friend gave me a bag of chocolates, pictured on the right. This was a product that even I had never had before! I’ve never even seen them. They are called Peepsters. If you can’t read the description in the pic, they are chocolates with a marshmallow flavored creme center.
This is the perfect treat for Peeps lovers and also for people who hate the texture of Peeps but like the marshmallow flavor. If you just don’t like marshmallows, you won’t like these either. And what is wrong with you anyway? They come in milk chocolate and dark chocolate and were delicious. I say were in past tense because hello, they’ve since been eaten. She found them in the candy aisle at a local grocery store with the rest of the Easter stuff, so check out a store near you!
This is a closeup of what is inside the bag. They are individually wrapped in pink, yellow, and orange. The colors are just decoration though because inside they are all the same. You can see what an unwrapped one looks like. How cute are these chocolates? Shaped like a Peep with the logo on it. And did I mention delicious? I was asked on Facebook if I get paid to promote Peeps. I wish!! My spanking weekend would be paid off by now. Lol. I’m just passionate about my candy. Easter is less than 2 weeks away and I will report any other Peeps related adventures. I may even try to my hand at one of the many Easter recipes I’ve seen with the Peeps theme. So many ideas!